If you’ve been following my blog, you know that my husband and I have been going through our TTC journey through IVF. It’s a pretty rough process and everything has to be timed just perfectly and honestly, as a Christian women, it makes me a little uncomfortable because it puts things more into our awareness of when something might happen because it’s planned out.

Since starting this journey, though, I have very much realized that it is still in God’s hands. The timing of when things end up on the schedule, when the transfer will be, if the baby sticks, when the baby comes. It’s all still up to Him, and that actually gives me comfort.

I know many of us like to be in control and it can feel good to know what is going on and feel in control of each situation. However, I have to be honest, things have always gone a WHOLE lot better when they’ve been up to God and not up to me.

Who knows how I would have shaped my life, but I can tell you that (except for maybe having a baby by now – but I’m trusting God on His timing) there isn’t anything I would change.

I am so grateful for everything God has provided for me in my life and I’m sure if you reflected on your life, you would see His hand on things in your life too and how He perfectly put things together.

“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens” Ecclesiastes 3:1

When I think back on my life thus far, God has provided a house, a job, and a husband among many other things.

The testimony of our house is that we were trying to save with a first-time buyers club, which ended up falling through due to some paperwork mishaps. It ended up being that we were in the midst of closing our house when this fell through. However, other money literally seemed to appeared out of nowhere, in addition to the savings from the first-time buyers club that we had to save, we were able to get our house. Truly a miracle from the Lord.

The house that we ended up getting also fell into our laps. We of course looked at the portal provided from the realtor and looked at a lot of houses, but we were limited because of our financial situation. We didn’t even request to see this house, but our realtor put it on the schedule so we went. Let’s just say, the house did not photograph well because when we saw it in person we loved it! It was only on the market for 6 days and we found it at a time we certainly didn’t expect to find a house because it wasn’t when a lot of houses go on the market. There were also no other offers.

Here’s where God really shines in this story because this is God we’re talking about. When we were closing on the house, even with the money we had, we didn’t have enough to close. Would you believe it, but in a very hot market for sellers, we actually ended up receiving money from the seller through a concession. Basically, the seller agreed to receive less profit so we could put some of our down payment into our mortgage. Amazing! God is Good!

“For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.” Habakkuk 2:3

I never knew if I would truly get married. I knew that it was in my heart and I wanted to have a companion in this life. However, I never had any boyfriends going through school and no one who ever seemed interested in me was someone I was interested in.

Then came Lucas.

I met him at the information desk at my college. Turns out, at the time, he had a crush on my best friend. I found out from her that she had no interest in him and so of course I asked her for his number, which somehow she had.

I got to texting him and it just continued from there, we ended up being a great match. He just fell into my lap and somehow had a mutual relationship with someone I knew. It is crazy how these things happen sometimes. We have had our ups and downs like any relationship, but he was my first boyfriend and now is my husband and our marriage is thriving.

“ In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.” Proverbs 16:9

When it comes to my job, I absolutely in no way saw this coming. I was starting to feel a shift in my spirit and I kind of felt like a change was needed, but I had no direction and didn’t want to make a huge change if I could avoid it.

Well God knew what I needed. He established the steps and I didn’t even know what was happening. I ended up changing my status at my job and starting another part-time job, but God had other plans. That new part-time turned into full time and I ended up getting out of a situation that I didn’t even realize was so draining and completely no longer right for me.

I ended up with an amazing new opportunity and it allowed me to launch one of my dreams that I never thought would become a reality in starting my own business. I was able to see clients under my own name and I have been thriving and happy ever since.

God is so good and we absolutely have to trust in Him because only He knows what our future holds.

“ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

This verse has absolutely been a life verse for me.

There are many many verses in the scriptures to lift us up and remind us to trust in Him, but this one has been so important for me.

I continue to hold on to this verse as I long to become a mother.

Remembering all the things God has provided for me, really helps me to remember that He still has so much planned for my future.

I’m looking forward to my future embryo transfers and I feel that God is with me, but I truly need to remember that even though it’s “planned”, it is absolutely still in God’s hands and only He decides when these things should and how they should happen.

“ Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6

“Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time, he may exalt you.” Peter 5:6

Hold on to hope and lean into the Lord. He will be with you in the waiting and provide when it should be done. I need to continue to remember this.